he corner of 16th Street and 6th Avenue in Birmingham is awash in
rich, abiding contradictions: the glorious and the grotesque, yesterday
surrounded by today, conflict in the midst of reconciliation. The pieces are
logically, masterfully, historically juxtaposed.
There's the blooming red and white tulips of Kelly Ingram Park
where steel sculptures sprout along the walkways, recreating scenes from
the May 3, 1963, melee when Commissioner Bull Connor unleashed dogs
and high-powered fire hoses on boycott-bound schoolchildren.
There's the magnificence of 16th Street Baptist Church, with a
sanctuary that holds 1,600 people, enough to launch Birmingham's
children's movement. Its place in history was secured on Sept. 15, 1963,
when a racist's bomb bloodied the church basement, killing four girls as
they prepared to lead a Sunday school lesson on "The love that forgives."
There's the Birmingham Civil Rights Institute, which shares the
corner and houses its memories. Its domed foyer opens to a museum that
offers to its visitors depth, reverence, and unapologetic truth.
My children and I drove the 88 miles from Selma to Birmingham in
time to see them all before nightfall.
Just that morning we had watched film footage of these places in a
Selma museum. After four days of driving through history, from Atlanta
to Tuskegee to Montomery to Selma and now Birmingham, the pieces of
our past were starting to overlap like folds of skin on an old face.
Kelly Ingram Park declares itself
"A place of revolution and reconciliation." We walked between the walls of one of the park's towering
sculptures, and Keith the actor recoiled in fear as snarling dogs, frozen in
mid-lunge, threatened him from either side. We walked past water-soaked
steel teenagers, no taller than Nikki, who brace against the imminent burst
from a powerful steel firehose.
We paused before the statue that captured the ugly moment when a
Birmingham policeman seized a teenager by the shirt and slackened the
leash on his police dog just enough for the animal to sink its teeth into the
boy's chest. America cringed when it saw a photograph of that moment.
Birmingham cringed when Mayor Richard Arrington Jr. dedicated the
angry statue.
I didn't cringe at all. I thought how remarkable a city this must be
that it could so publicly admit its sins.
We crossed 16th Street and met the Rev. Christopher Hamlin, the
church's pastor and too young of a man to remember the things he would
tell us. He showed us the massive sanctuary, the beautiful stained glass
window -- an ebony Christ with arms outstretched -- donated by the
children of Wales when they learned of the tragedy that unfolded in the
basement.
In the basement, Keith scribbled down the names of the four girls,
whose photographs hang in a tiny, picture-filled room. He lingered near
their images, asked questions about their ages, begged his sister and I to
take pictures, since he was out of film.
Why, I asked him later, was this piece of history so important?
"They were little kids like me," he said.
The Civil Rights Museum tells those stories in artistically beautiful
and historically graphic ways. Its self-guided tour began with an
introductory video about Birmingham's beginnings. Then the wall rose,
and we were looking at segregated water fountains.
Keith, a child who must touch his world to experience it, tried to get
a drink. The Whites Only fountain sent up a strong stream of cool water.
When he tried the Colored Only faucet, it offered an inferior dribble that
barely cleared the corroded spigot.
Keith stood there blinking. Thinking.
Details make the wonderfully interactive young museum a national
treasure. The creaky floor in the "shotgun house" exhibit. The old Bible in the "Black Church" exhibit, turned to Isaiah, Chapter 57, Verse 21: "There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked."
Nikki did more writing in her journal there than anywhere:
"Some displays point out the fact that many black people owned their own businesses and churches," she wrote. "Some even have very elegant
houses and cars. Some people probably think we had no kind of
businessmen or women in the community."
She noted the caricatures of black mammies and watermelon-eating
sambos in an exhibit of early, racist advertising. She copied snatches of
Sect. 369: "Separation of Races," from a reproduction of Birmingham's
racial segregation ordinances: "If blacks and whites were in the same
restaurant," she wrote to herself, "there had to be a wall at least 7 feet separating the two."
I considered the messages behind those observations as we walked.
How would this immersion into a hateful past of legislated inferiority affect
her; she who was already trying to figure out whether the smug superiority
of the white teenage boys in her high school honors classes is about race or
gender or if it's just about screwed-up personality?
Like her brother, she talks very little about such things, releasing
occasional clues about her feelings, sunk deep in a question, floating unseen
on an inflection, telegraphed in a glance. She and Keith long ago learned to
see through my veiled expeditions into their inner thoughts, stopping my
angled inquiries with one of their own: "Why do you want to know?"
When we arrived at the cell door behind which King secretly wrote
his "Letter From a Birmingham Jail," the past reached out and gave me
perspective, understanding, words.
In excerpts from that letter, printed boldly next to the mock prison
cell, I found a father who struggled to talk to his children about racism and
worried about the scars it would leave behind.
"...When you suddenly find your tongue
twisted and your speech stammering as you seek
to explain to your six-year-old daughter why she
can't go to the public amusement park that has just
been advertised on television ... and see her begin
to distort her little personality by unconsciously
developing a bitterness toward white people; when
you have to concoct an answer for a five-year-old
son asking in agonizing pathos: 'Daddy, why do
white people treat colored people so
mean?'....then you will understand why we find it
difficult to wait."
King's 1963 letter to white clergy who had criticized the impatience
of the movement captured the angst I felt in Selma as I tried to explain why
a white woman's death was considered more outrageous than that of
hundreds of black people.
I knew, as I read King's words, that what silenced me in Selma, what
made me squirm as Nikki and I talked about her white classmates, was the
daunting realization that so much -- and, yet, so little -- has changed in this
country.
We drove through the sparkling hills of Birmingham that night to
catch a movie and relax. We saw Steve Martin in Sgt. Bilko. It was a
time for silliness.
In the newspaper that day was a story about a small Alabama town
nearby, where civil rights leaders gathered to discuss five torchings of
black churches since December.
NEXT: On the road, driven to judgment.
History instructs, but it also bends, colors, distorts. Seldom is that convolution more pronounced than when a black man meets a white police officer on an all-but-deserted highway.
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